Thursday, September 6, 2007

First Day of Pre School!

I was so proud of my big boy today. Today, Thursday September 6 2007, Cooper went to his first day of pre school! He's been excited since meeting his teacher about a week ago but I wasn't sure how he would actually do when it was time for us to leave. He timidly walked into the classroom, clinging to Daddy's hand. His teacher Christina came over and took him to his cubby to put away his hat. Cooper came back in and took Daddy's hand again and Daddy took him over to some toys. After a couple minutes Cooper was busy playing and exploring the room and all it had to offer. The twins even got to have a little play while Cooper was getting used to his new surroundings. After about 20 minutes we could see that Cooper was going to do just fine and decided to leave him on his own and take the twins for a walk. I was so proud to be able to walk out of the room and have him be ok, no crying or whining or wanting to go home. I think he was too busy playing to realize that we had actually left! While it's a little sad to see my baby growing up, getting bigger and more independent every day, I'm so excited that he did so well.
He's looking forward to going again and I must say I'm quite happy that I will have a little bit a break. I also found out that there is a toddler play group at the same building and same time as he's at school on Tuesdays, so I think I'll take the twins to that and give them play time with other kids as well.
My babies are growing up!!


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Saturday, July 28, 2007

Cancer Sucks

I got this info off of Lawyer Mama (http://lawyermama.blogspot.com/) and knew I had to pass it on as well. I have never read her blog but I love that she wants this post out there on as many blogs as possible. She has cancer, breast cancer, and that just isn't fair. She has 2 young boys, a husband, and I'm sure many other family memeber who love her and need her. Please send your thoughts, prayers, healing vibes-whatever it is you believe in-out to this woman and her family and wish her well.
I had an aunt die of breast cancer when I was very young and it tore our family apart in many different ways. Her husband got remarried and we never really seen her kids again. To this day I think about her youngest son, my cousin, who a year older than me. We were close, well as close as 7 year olds can be. I still think of him, I still wonder where he is and how he's doing, and I hate that cancer took all that away from me and all our family.
Please pass this along in any way you can, if someone else can get an early diagnosis from reading her post then that is a wonderful thing.

http://toddlerplanet.wordpress.com/
We hear a lot about breast cancer these days. One in eight women will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetimes, and there are millions living with it in the U.S. today alone. But did you know that there is more than one type of breast cancer?I didn’t. I thought that breast cancer was all the same. I figured that if I did my monthly breast self-exams, and found no lump, I’d be fine.Oops. It turns out that you don’t have to have a lump to have breast cancer. Six weeks ago, I went to my OB/GYN because my breast felt funny. It was red, hot, inflamed, and the skin looked…funny. But there was no lump, so I wasn’t worried. I should have been. After a round of antibiotics didn’t clear up the inflammation, my doctor sent me to a breast specialist and did a skin punch biopsy. That test showed that I have inflammatory breast cancer, a very aggressive cancer that can be deadly.
Inflammatory breast cancer is often misdiagnosed as mastitis because many doctors have never seen it before and consider it rare. “Rare” or not, there are over 100,000 women in the U.S. with this cancer right now; only half will survive five years. Please call your OB/GYN if you experience several of the following symptoms in your breast, or any unusual changes: redness, rapid increase in size of one breast, persistent itching of breast or nipple, thickening of breast tissue, stabbing pain, soreness, swelling under the arm, dimpling or ridging (for example, when you take your bra off, the bra marks stay – for a while), flattening or retracting of the nipple, or a texture that looks or feels like an orange (called peau d’orange). Ask if your GYN is familiar with inflammatory breast cancer, and tell her that you’re concerned and want to come in to rule it out.There is more than one kind of breast cancer. Inflammatory breast cancer is the most aggressive form of breast cancer out there, and early detection is critical. It’s not usually detected by mammogram. It does not usually present with a lump. It may be overlooked with all of the changes that our breasts undergo during the years when we’re pregnant and/or nursing our little ones. It’s important not to miss this one.Inflammatory breast cancer is detected by women and their doctors who notice a change in one of their breasts. If you notice a change, call your doctor today. Tell her about it. Tell her that you have a friend with this disease, and it’s trying to kill her. Now you know what I wish I had known before six weeks ago.You don’t have to have a lump to have breast cancer

P.S. Feel free to steal this post too. I’d be happy for anyone in the blogosphere to take it and put it on their site, no questions asked. Dress it up, dress it down, let it run around the place barefoot. I don’t care. But I want the word to get out. I don’t want another young mom — or old man — or anyone in between — to have to stare at this thing on their chest and wonder, is it mastitis? Is it a rash? Am I overreacting? This cancer moves FAST, and early detection and treatment is critical for survival.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Wow!

It's been less than a week and I'm posting again already! G and I took the kids to the beach today and we had a pretty good time. It wasn't for swimming, not where we were. It's a keep-your-shoes-on kind of beach and it was a little cool so it was an exploring day. The twins have never been to a beach before I don't think, not since they've gotten bigger anyway. Jorja had fun picking up shells and rocks, Ryder had a blast running around where he was supposed to and going ankle deep in the water. Unfortunately I don't have pics up on the computer yet, hopefully tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Well have I been slacking...

or WHAT! May was my last post, how horrible! Thank you to Donna for making me get back into the swing of things. I have been tagged to list 7 things about myself-I am horrible at this! I never know what to say about me, but here it goes:

1) I'm desperate to get better at photography.

2) Chocolate is my weakness!

3) I'm lazy-my house is such a mess right now but I've just been to tired and lazy to deal with it.

4) I'm really trying to be a more positive thinker.

5) My friends are just as important to me as my family-and just as loved. Don't know what I'd do without them.

6) I love cheesy teen movies-despite the fact that I'm 29.

7) I'm not afraid to turn 30.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Help a litte boy

Looking around on facebook I found a site for this sweet little boy. He has cancer and his wish is to receive 350 million cards before his birthday at the end of May. I don't know why, something about his story has made me sit at my computer for the past hour or so putting out his website everywhere I can think of. Messege boards, email, talk shows...hopefully the word will spread and his wish will come true.
Here is the site http://www.shaneswish.com/index.php I know I don't have a lot of people checking out my blog, so maybe if you are reading this you can put it in your blog too, and/or email it out to all you know. All it takes is a stamp and a peice of paper made into a simple card to help his dream come true.
Please think about it.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

"Why We Are Drawn To Tragedy"

I haven't been able to read this whole article yet but I'm very intrigued by it. I'm one of those people that feel like they just have to watch the bad things that are going on. I watch in horror, and I cry, and I just take it all in. I feel my whole body tense up and I'm just filled with unbelievable sadness for these people and all they're going thru.

Of course right now it's the VTech Shooting. I've actually been trying not to watch much of it. I've read a bit on the internet and Garry had something about it on last nite for a few minutes-I was crying within seconds. This time it's different for me, I'm not just sad and shocked that someone can do something so horrible, but I'm filled with anxiety. I feel shaky all over and my insides feel fluttery and empty but twisted and heavy at the same time.

Maybe having kids has changed how I react. I can't even fathom having my kids in school and seeing on the internt/tv that there's been a shooting.

Ok, my mind is starting to fall apart, I have to go do something else and try not to think about this for a while. I've attached the article I was talking about, and a pic of the kids just becuz.



http://lifestyle.sympatico.msn.ca/Why+You+Cant+Turn+Away/BodyandMind/ContentPosting.aspx?isfa=1&newsitemid=35382&feedname=RODALE-MENHEALTH&show=False&number=0&showbyline=True&subtitle=&detect=&abc=abc



Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Over-reacting?

My friend Stephanie had an interesting thing on her blog today-http://stephanies.blog.com/ Please see her blog to see her points as they are written much neater than mine will b:e cuz I plan on just going on a rant. This is an email she got and this is what has me annoyed

"I am convinced that my children are out to destroy every piece of electronic equipment that I own. It all started 1 ½ years ago when my 3 year old dropped an 8 pound medicine ball on the laptop, shattering the screen. She shoved numerous DVDs into the 5 disc CD/DVD player, causing it lose all function except for the radio, which got poor reception. Monsters, Inc. was missing for months. One day it magically popped out of that DVD player! She pulled the 36 inch TV out of the entertainment center and was fortunate to avoid being squashed as it crashed to the floor. She spilled a Slurpee on my cell phone and destroyed the LCD display. My 2 year old yanked the tray out of our next DVD player. He colored a keyboard with a green Sharpie marker. He pulled the button and the tip off of the Stylus Pen and dropped it in a bottle of water. And we suspect that our 18 year old slammed the laptop (with a new $800 screen) shut and shattered it but he insists that it wasn’t him and no one will confess. It has been an expensive year and a half!"

Now all you mothers out there know that some of this stuff just happens. The pens-it seems like pens are magnetic to kids, you think you've picked them all up and 5 minutes later your child has another one! So I can see that. Many of these I can understand but I think most of us don't have ALL of them happen to us-am I wrong? Am I overly cautious? I mean, I know I am, but really?
I've had my toddler draw on books that he shouldn't have, and there was just an xbox game that got broken becuz he took down off the shelf to look at the book and I think the baby ended up chewing on it. So I've been there, I know that things sometimes happen. But a medicine ball on a laptop? Seriously?!? Am I the only one that thinks this is ridiculous?!?!
It wasn't said what the nature of the email was. Part of me wonders if it was an electronic company trying to show why you should buy the protection programs when you buy your electronics-trying to scare you until getting it. At least you kinda hope that's what it is!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

My Babies Are ONE!


It's hard to believe that it's been a whole year since my sweet little twins were born. Last year around this time I couldn't believe that I was almost 37 weeks pregnant with no real labor signs in sight! This of course was a good thing that my little monkeys stayed in there for that long as I was really worried that they would come too early, but I never dreamed that I would end up having to be induced at exactly 37 weeks on the dot-exact same amount of weeks that I was pregnant with Cooper.
My labor went quickly, so quick in fact that husband and his mother almost missed it! They got there within minutes of me having to start pushing. Ryder was born 1:54pm. He was doing great with just a slight difficulty breathing so they took him to the nursery to monitor him. I was pretty out of it after that. Looking back it's easy to tell something was wrong while trying to push out Jorja-I didn't know it at the time but I was bleeding pretty heavily and her heart rate kept dropping. At one point it was down to 38 beats per minute which is very low-luckily they don't tell you any of this at this time. The dr delivered her with the forcepts and she was fine. She had a little trouble breathing as well so she was also taken to the nursery but they were both back with me within a couple hours. They were both healthy with no problems, and weighed 5lbs 14oz.
Here are my little bundles, now 1 year old and over 20lbs. How time flies.





Thursday, April 5, 2007

My Photo Blog

check out my other blog that i've been mainly trying to put my photography on. but i did post about my fun nite with coop last nite.
http://mandisphotos.blogspot.com/

Monday, April 2, 2007

Questions from Stephanie

A wonderful online friend name Stephanie has a blog with some really fun things on it. I try to keep up on all my friends blogs but I must say I get quite behind! On Stephanie's blog (http://stephanies.blog.com/) the other day she had a post where someone asked her 5 personal questions tailored to her and asked if anyone wanted to continue the chain and have questions asked to them. Well I figured since I always get so behind on my own blog this would something to get me writing. So here are the questions she thought of for me. Thanx for taking the time Stephanie, I know you're busy right now.

1. What's the hardest part of living away from your family?
Most of you know that I'm living about 4-5 hours away from my parents and family right now as my husband got a really good job in another town that we just couldn't turn down. The hardest part is that my mom (and dad) are missing so much of the kids growing up. The twins were only 5 months when we moved and now they're almost a year. So much happens in that time and it's sad that they've missed that. Luckily we have a webcam so mom get to "see" the kids and they can see her too.

2. If you lived in a big city, what would be the first thing that you'd do?
SHOPPING & EATING!!!! Tied for first I think. I miss McDonalds, KFC, Wendy's, Kelsey's Resteraunt, I could go on but I won't. and I'd go to Walmart. I'm a cheap shopper and I miss my Walmart-good deals AND McDonalds at the same place!?! It doesn't get any better than that! Oh and see a movie cuz I really miss not having a theatre (not that I get out to the movies much, but I miss having the options)

3. What is the best thing about having twins?
Gosh this one is really hard. I think for me, being that I won't be having any more kids I get to see all the "firsts" twice. Ryder is walking and it's so great, but Jorja's not which is kinda nice cuz I'll get to relive first steps again with her.

4. If you could move anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?
Back to my family. Or if I could take them with me I'd love to live somewhere warm. Maybe near Disneyland!! How fun would that be!

5. What is your favorite part of being a mom to 3 babies so young?
Hoping they'll be close. I love watching them play together, it's so great. I've always to have kids close in age so that they really grow up together-I love it.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Just Another Day

The twins are sitting in their new seats eating banana and watching Backyardigans (http://www.nickjr.com/shows/backyardigans/index.jhtml). Cooper is playing skateboarding on XBOX. Garry has left for work. I'm trying to do laundry and have some computer time while the kids are occupied. Altho I keep turning around to look at them cuz they look so cute eating all by themselves-especially with bananas cuz they're slimy and kind of hard to pick up sometimes.

Here's a pic of my babies who are just growing up so fast.


Friday, March 23, 2007

Movies

I love movies. I'm watching previews for movies that are coming on our movie channel next month and just seeing the previews for certain movies make my heart beat faster. It's amazing that movies can stir such emotion in a person-happiness, sadness, fear, etc. Movies that I've seen before, almost crying just watching the advertisement becuz I can already feel the emotions of the movie-reliving it as I watch the 2 minute preview, knowing what happens, how it ends, and the tears that will come in those last few minutes.

The movies: The Lake House and Click

The Lake House: I'm so in love with this movie. I love that the concept is different from every other romantic drama/comedy. Knowing I should have seen the end coming but I got so wrapped up in the movie itself that I forgot about the first part (same thing happened when I watched Moulin Rouge too). Then holding my breath, hoping this movie ended "the right way", at least in my mine, becuz if it didn't I would be so disappointed to have to add it to my "I break down and sob every time I watch it but I always watch it again" collection (City of Angels is in this catagory).

Click: Amazing. Obviously funny with Adam Sandler but it was the unexpected heart felt ending that made me really like this movie. Can't wait to see it again.

Monday, March 12, 2007

tired, tired, tired

Well I got out Friday evening for a much needed "me" nite. It was nice to be out and chatting with adults again, but part of me just wanted to be resting at home. I'm still tired from being out late I think! And now I think I'm coming down with something, I'm stuffed up and not feeling well. Ryder had a really bad nite on Saturday, I just wish I could get him to sleep.

On a good note, I got a new laptop! The crappy thing is, it has Windows Vista and it pretty much sux! Ok, it's not all that bad, just lot of little fun things that I like that I can't do with Vista. But it's much faster and I can use Paint Shop much better now so it's definately worth it.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

March is here...

Wow, I can't believe we're into March already. The twins will be one next month, where has the time gone. Ryder is standing and trying to walk, Jorja is so vocal and sometimes even manages to copy some words.
Spring is just around the corner and hopefully the weather will get a little better-altho I'm expecting lots of rain being on the wonderful west coast. A few nice days would be nice tho to get the kids outside.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Long Couple Days

I was supposed to go out Friday for my birthday but ended up staying home. Garry was out late Saturday leaving me with a crabby boy who wanted his daddy from 11:30pm until 1am. Sunday nite Ryder was sick. Yesterday Jorja was sick. Last Jorja had a fever most of the nite and did not sleep well, just wanted cuddles. I got a soar throat last nite, and then pulled something in back around 4am and I'm in major pain if I move the wrong way-makes holding the kids very tricky.
Ryder is currently having a good nap, should be up soon. Jorja seems to have settled a bit and is playing with her big brother. Garry's gone to hockey, then grocery shopping, then work-so should be a long day/nite for me again. Hopefully the kids will be ok and sleep better.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

No Better Time To Blog

I'm trying to waste time. 10 more minutes at least, probably more. See we're taping Grey's Anatomy so we wouldn't miss it while putting the kids to bed. Now, I have to wait until it's over becuz I don't want to start watching it half way thru. I also have to wait until Garry gets Cooper to sleep becuz I promised I wouldn't start it without him. I'm going a little crazy!! This is my favorite show-at least my favorite show that is still putting out new episodes. Altho being that this is a three part story I just know that tonites episode is going to leave me with more questions than answers and I'm going to have to wait, yet again, until NEXT week to find out what is going to happen!!
Just needed to get that all out.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Fighting

I hate to fight with my husband, I'm sure all women do. What bothers me the most is that these fights are totally avoidable. Why can't a grown man just realize (after 7 years) that picking up the damn phone will save a huge fight!
Garry went to dinner with a friend last nite and said he wouldn't be late. Well he ended up coming home at 1am, and unfortunately it wasn't a great nite for the kids so that just added to my frustration of him not being home. My 2 year old is daddy's boy and when he woke up at midnite and daddy wasn't home he very upset and his crying woke up one of the babies. I finally got both of them back to sleep and it was close to 1am. I was trying to ignore my anger and go back to sleep when I heard him come and I just had to go downstairs and vent my feelings. We quietly had it out until Cooper heard daddy and came downstairs.
The worst part of it to me is when he says he's sorry. It sounds completely insincere and how can he mean it? He made the choice to stay out so how can he be sorry about? All he feels is sorry that I'm coming down on him for it.

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

When Least Expected

I was watching Party of Five today (yes it's on reruns here!) and it turned out to be an episode that hit me right in the heart. Bailey's girlfriend Jill dies and he shuts down, just doesn't want to deal so he shuts down. Near the end Charlie comes to talk to him to see if he can get him to open up and tell him what he's feeling. Bailey tells Charlie, "I can't love anymore, it's too hard. So I'm not going to love anyone, and I don't want anyone to love me." (http://www.tv.com/party-of-five/the-ides-of-march/episode/35431/trivia.html)
He's done with caring for anyone becuz the people he's loved in his life have died-they've left him. This hit me tremendously becuz I've been in the exact same place, still living it in some ways. A friend of mine passed away in 1996, he meant so much to me and I never got to know him as well as I would have liked. I never got to tell him how I felt about him either, and that has always haunted me. After losing him I didn't know how to function. I went on with my life and thought I was living it the same, but what I didn't realize at the time was how much I was pushing away the people that meant the most to me. I didn't want to love anyone, I didn't want to have feelings for anyone becuz of the fear that they would "leave me". I turned 19 a couples months later and drinking became my friend. My friends stopped hanging around me, they would even invite my boyfriend out but tell him not to invite me. I was there one nite when they called and he let me know what was going on. I understood completely, I was a horrible person to be around when I was drinking. I was miserable and depressed and my nite would usually end with my crying-who wants to deal with that?!
It took a while but I've worked thru the fear-for the most part anyway. I found a wonderful man who I married and loves me despite all my faults. I have 3 gorgeous children and I HAVE to love them, it's impossible not to! Loving them is probably the hardest I've ever done. I can't stop myself from loving them becuz they're my children but that "fear of losing" them sometimes overwhelms me-it's the scariest thought to me.

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Having A Photo Published

It's not going to be in anything fancy or worldwide-not even country wide but I think it's pretty cool! I entered Jorja's picture into a photo contest and it was chosen to be published in their book this year. This is the site http://www.photolaureates.org/ They just publish entry's to their contest, I think there's a money prize as well altho I don't expect to win that as there are many other great pictures entered. I just entered on a whim as I had a cute pic of Jo I had just done. The book is pretty expensive to buy but I think we're going to get it becuz it's a neat keepsake for her (we think anyway).

This is the photo I entered.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

My Brain is MUSH!

Thru out the day I'm always thinking of things to write, but by the time I make it to my computer at nite, all of those thoughts have gone missing. Where did they go? I guess they just trickled out my ear while making bottles or chasing babies around. Or have they crawled deeper into my brain to come out at a later date?
Tonite I think it is too late to go in and look for those thoughts so I am going to bed. Maybe tomorrow something brilliant will come to me-don't hold your breath tho!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

We Always Come 'Back Together'



Like most husband and wives, Garry and I have our share of fights. Some are big, some are small, about everything and anything. Having three young children usually keeps us focused on things other than each other, especially with a 2 year old that won't sleep thru the nite and needs someone in bed with him-that someone ends up being Garry. That's just something we've gotten used to becuz neither one of us have the energy to try and change it right now.
At times I feel very disconnected from Garry. We do the laundry, feed the kids, do the dishes, change the kids, tidy up, play with the kids...where's that 'us' time that all couples need. I'm sure most couples out there with children feel this at some point-whether it be frequently or just every now and then. Living so far away from family now we don't even have someone to drop the kids off for a couple hours to just go have dinner or see a movie, so I think since moving here we've slightly drifted away from each other more than usual.
Garry works 3 nites a week, starting between 3-4pm and getting home between between 11pm-12midnite. It's nice to have him home during the day but it does make my evenings a little harder and very lonely. Well today was like every other day...we brought the kids downstairs, fed them, ate ourselves and did our own thing while the kids played. We had a small fight about how he always makes me 'the bad guy' which he forgot about almost right away.
A little while later he had some music on and I was dancing with the kids for a little while. I took a break and played on the computer for a few minutes, then Garry put a song on and came over to me, took my hand and pulled me up to dance. The song was "Have A Little Faith In Me" (don't know who sings it) and it just got to me. As we held each other and danced I started to cry-I just couldn't help it. It was very emotional and Garry started to cry as well (don't hate me for sharing that honey). I think it just got to us becuz we don't get those moments often and it just reaffirms that we DO love each other even tho we rarely show it now-a-days. We held each other, barely moving to the music, just loving the moment and taking it all in as much as we could. It really brought us back together again. As far apart as we get sometimes we always seem to find those moments somehow.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Trying to Decide

There's something that I've been thinking of writing about for a couple days now, but I couldn't decide if I was going to or not. It's nothing controversial; no one will rush to their email to forward my blog to everyone they know becuz of the awful, or clever, or interesting, or awe-inspiring thing that they've read. Lets face it, I've only been writing for a week or so and I've only written 2 posts so how many people are going to read it-not many, so here it goes.
Well, I've got my period (don't worry ladies, I won't write anything gross-men, men? where did you go?), and day 2 is always the worst for me. I get up in the morning and open up an Always pad, and for some reason this is the first time I notice that their slogan is on sticker cover-"Have a happy period." I don't know why I'd never seen it before and I don't know why I had to see it on THAT day. It actually made me angry! I know, how absurd does that sound? Angry over a slogan? All I could think was, "Here I am-tired, worn out, bad cramps, my back in so much pain I don't even want to move!" and they have the nerve to 'tell' me to "Have a HAPPY period"?????? Are you kidding me??????? Pathetically it bothered me for the rest of day. Every time I went to bathroom and looked at that package I wanted to call them up and tell them to write a new slogan. I'm over it now. (even tho I still think they need a new slogan)

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Single moms ROCK!

My husband and I moved to a new town at the end of September 2006. He got a new job and it requires him to work 3 afternoon/evening shifts out of his 5 shifts a week. At first I thought "This is going to be great!", I was very excited that he would be home with me most of the day more often. Well it didn't take me long to realize that putting three kids to bed myself is very difficult-especially with twins that both still want to be cuddled with a bottle at the same time.
It's really made me think of the women I know that are doing this on their own-all day, every day, no break. Those moms amaze me becuz I really think if it was me I would break. Altho I guess once you're in that situation you find a way to fight thru it. You can't just lay down and "break", you've got children to take care of.
I just wanted to take the time to acknowledge the single moms that do this alone day in and day out, stay strong. You're my inspiration.

Monday, January 15, 2007

My First Post

I won't attempt to catch you up on my life so far as that would be a long, somewhat boring, story. I'm not sure how much to say in this first post of mine, I think I'll keep it simple so I have more stuff to write about on my boring days! I'll also warn you that I really am not that great of a writer. I'm hoping to get better so bare with me as I try.

I'll be 29 on February 25. I'm not one of those women who fears getting older, age is just a number. I have people who ask if it's scary being so close to 30-well, no. What's so scary about 30? I have other things to worry about besides getting older.


I'm married to a pretty good guy named Garry. We were married on a gorgeous summer day in July 2002. It had been extremely windy that whole week and the morning of my wedding was no different, but just before we came out the door to get into the horse drawn carriage the wind died right down and we were left with a nice relaxing breeze.

We now have three gorgeous children together, and my husband has 2 sons from past relationships. Our first son Cooper was born August 28, 2004. It was the happiest moment of my life. I had 2 heartbreaking miscarriages before that and even tho my pregnancy was pretty much perfect, every day was just so awful waiting for something to go wrong. I think only someone who has felt the loss of a pregnancy knows what I'm talking about. But everything was fine and I had a healthy baby boy born 3 weeks early.

A couple days before Cooper's first birthday I found out I was pregnant again. Filled with that same wonderful yet terrifying feeling I broke the news to Garry as he was tucking me into bed that nite. He was blown away, not expecting it at all. The next day I started spotting a little and on Cooper's birthday I was bleeding. I spend that day during his party putting on a smile and trying to have a great time all the while thinking for sure I was losing his baby brother or sister on his birthday. The next day the bleeding stopped, I went to the dr a few days later to find out what was going on and found out my numbers were going up as they should be so everything seemed fine.

Again I had to deal with every day as it came, hoping for the best and that is what I got. I had an early ultrasound done around 14 weeks becuz I was measuring big. That day we found out we were blessed with TWINS!! It was the most amazing news but also made things a little more tense as now there are more worries with 2 babies growing inside. My mind was put at ease with each dr's appointment having my dr tell me I was the best pregnant twin mom he's had! I also got to have an ultrasound once a month and that was great. Nothing beats seeing your babies move and seeing their little hearts beating away perfectly. They were born April 14, 2006 at 37 weeks-just like their big brother. I actually had to be induced becuz they seemed pretty cozy in there and weren't making an appearance on their own. They were perfect as well. My second son Ryder was born first, and my one and only little girl Jorja was born 15 minutes later.

Cooper is now 2 and a half, and the babies are 9 months-crawling and pulling themselves up on everything. It makes for interesting days and sometimes very long nites, but they are all miracles to me and I wouldn't want it any other way.
(Sorry about the crappy quality of some of the pics, I'll more at some point)