Tuesday, January 29, 2008

An Interesting Week

Last Wednesday was not a good day for me. I ran out of my anti-depressant and Wednesday was the first day I'd had it in 4 or 5 days. I couldn't handle the kids whining and crying, I put them to bed as soon 7pm came along. My head felt fuzzy, I was dizzy. My chest was heavy and I couldn't seem to get a full breath in. I felt shaky and unsteady. I was scared I was going to have a panic attack. I've never had one before but I've heard people talk about them and I was scared. I called G and told him I wasn't well, just talking to him helped. He was very understanding, told me it was ok if I went to Nanaimo and took some time for myself-so that's what I did.
I had my labret pierced (below the bottom lip). I've wanted it done for a while now and decided that would be my birthday present, and I'm so happy I did it. Then I got my hair cut which I love. Got together with my best friend and went shopping and had a little adventure-it's what we do-always something simple but fun!
It really helped me to unwind, focus on myself and get myself back.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Friday's Film

Ok, I know I missed last week, we had family visiting. This week:

Black Snake Moan

Overall, not too bad. Samuel L Jackson and Christina Ricci, both good actors. It was interesting to watch the relationship between them to see what it would turn into. It wasn't a movie I had to pay close attention too, I watched it while playing around on the computer.
I'd say maybe 3 out of 5 stars.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

How the week has flown by...

Wow! The past week really went by quickly. I knew I hadn't written in a couple days but I didn't realize it had been a week. Some of G's family were here last Thursday to Saturday, it was really nice to have visitors. Cooper got to have fun with his cousin who is about a year and half older than him-they really had a blast together. And he got to see his Nana and his Aunty P and Aunty K. They all had had so much fun just being together. Aunty P lives a little further away so we don't get to see her as much as we'd like so it was really great having that time together. Saying good-bye was hard. Coop is very emotional and he does not like good-bye's. He won't do them. When he knows it's a final bye for a while he doesn't want to give hugs or kisses, doesn't even like to wave-just wants to cuddle up with mom or dad. Poor kid, I know how he feels, I don't like saying good bye either.

Now onto sleeping, or not sleeping as the case may be. It seems every time I pull up this blog someone starts crying. Right now, it's Ryder. I'm trying to ignore him becuz the more I go up to put him back to sleep, the more he seems to wake up. The hard part is waiting and hoping that he doesn't wake up his sister who is "lucky" enough to share a room with him (thankfully she's a deep sleeper!!). Or worse, hoping he doesn't wake up Cooper who doesn't sleep well anyway without Ryder crying and hollering for mama. And oh how heart breaking it feels some nites to listen to his voice stain to keep calling for me, screaming for me.
Oh sweet boy just go back to sleep.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008


I always seem to have a problem deciding what to write about. During the day something will come across my mind and I'll think "hey I could write about that later", it's not always something interesting, but it's something. My problem, when I turn on the computer and log in to blog every single idea I may have had during the day falls out of my head. I'm convinced if you looked you could see them oozing out of my ears! Maybe if I grab a mirror I can read a few before they hit the floor and disappear.

I am proud of myself for getting off my butt and doing my exercises tonite, I didn't want to-REALLY didn't, but I'm not going to get anywhere by sitting around. Will power, it's definitely something I need more of.

Cooper is now crying so I suppose I'd better get him back to sleep.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Working Out

I'm trying to lose weight, not just to be thinner but to be more healthy. Keeping up with three toddlers isn't the easiest thing to do so why not make it easier by actually being able to run around for longer than 30 seconds before I'm out of breath!!

I've done well, gotten on my glider 2 nites in a row which is a big deal for me. What makes it hard is the last thing I want to do after getting the kids to bed is excercise, plus they don't sleep well so some nites I'm running up and down the stairs every 30 minutes to calm somebody down. It's so frustrating to get into a rhythm and have to stop, go upstairs, put a child back to sleep, come back down and feel like I'm starting all over again.

Maybe writing will help me feel like I've got to excercise, like somehow now that I've shared it I've just got to do it. We'll see.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Bad Nose Day

Well it's been a bad nose day here for both boys. Cooper took a nose dive down the stairs, had a little bit of a bloody nose.
Then later in the afternoon it was Ryder's turn. He took a spill off the couch and got a bloody nose as well.

What am I going to do with these boys?!
(I promise I took these pics after I cuddled him and he was feeling better)

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Small town food

I'm totally craving fast food! Being a very small town the only take out we have is sub way and 2 resteraunts to order from. I could really go for McDonalds right now!

Please excuse my pathetic post, I'm tired and can't really think.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Friday's Film-Transformers

I was trying think of something I could do as a weekly theme, once or twice a week. My husband Garry has Thursday and Fridays off so a lot times we rent movies on Thursday nites, so I figured I'd write about them on Friday. I will say right now that I can guarantee that 99% of the time these movies will not be new-some may be down right old!! But I love movies so I thought that writing about them would be fun. Now on to this weeks movie...


This is a movie that I wasn't overly excited to see but I do like Shia LaBeouf (read more about him here: http://imdb.com/name/nm0479471/ ). I was pleasantly surprised by this movie I must say. For a movie about robot transformers from outter space it was quite interesting, , full of action, very funny and the effects were great. My favorite part was the comedy-very well done. I would recomment this movie if you like action and advention, or just want something to watch that you don't have to have to concentrate too much on.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Loss, Despair...then finally HOPE

IWhile cleaning up my room the other day I found my pregnancy journal from Cooper. It was fun to flip thru but I wish I had written in it more, but I was far too terrified. Before getting pregnant with Cooper I had to miscarriages and by the time I was pregnant for a third time I was terrified. After the first one I read that having a miscarriage with your first pregnancy is quite common so the second time I think I just figured everything would be fine. When I was hit with the loss of that baby I was crushed. It was 2 days after our first wedding anniversary, and I took it hard. Obviously. Any loss seems to kill a little part of you, a part you'll never get back. There's 2 holes in my heart that will never heal from those losses.

The third time we were very cautious. I wanted to write down everything to remind me of everything I was feeling, but I didn't want to get too attached-not that that is really possible. G didn't want to tell anyone, we had an ultrasound scheduled for when I would be 7 weeks along and he wanted to wait to make sure things were ok-that was almost 3 weeks away. It was the longest 3 weeks of my life, but well worth the wait. At 7 weeks pregnant, I got to see a tiny little blob on a grainy black and white screen, a tiny little dot of a heart beating away.

In labour with Cooper:
Our first meeting:My sweet boy, about a week old:
Big boy now, his 3rd birthday:

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Summer Flashback

We live in a small town on Vancouver Island, and we are both originally from a town about 4 hours south. My husband Garry got his dream job here driving zamboni at the local arena so we packed up and left our family and friends to start in a new town. Garry get the month of August off so last year we packed up and went back to our home town for the month.
This day we had gone to the fair that was in town, the kids were tired after a long day and the last thing they wanted to do was get in the car but unfortunately that's just what has to happen. Jorja didn't complain much, just fought her eyes trying to stay awake. Ryder on the other hand (as you will see) was NOT happy to be getting strapped into his seat after being strapped in his stroller all afternoon.
Luckily it all ened with this about 10 minutes later. There's nothing sweeter than two sleeping babies, so peaceful.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

A New Year Begins Again

Cooper has been amazing, he also seems to learn something new every day. This was a big year for him as he started pre school! He's done really well, a lot better than I was expecting, he's settling in nicely. I think I can now consider him potty trained which huge! We are very excited about that. Like everything else, he did it only when he was ready and knew could do it. He loves going to the library and reading before bed. He still isn't sleeping well but maybe that will be the big thing for 2008, we'll see.We are doing well in Port McNeill. It's a nice little town, hard thru the winter having no where to take the kids. We got a new car this year, that's the big thing for us. A 2001 Honda Accord and it just fits us perfectly. We could use a little more trunk space but it is quite spacious. As usual I'm hoping to start writing more, I'm not good at it but I do like it. At the end of the day I'm so tired I usually just watch a bit of tv and go to bed, but we'll see what the new year brings.