Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Loss

"They say I lost the baby, like it was my keys or something"

That's a line from a movie, a line that cuts into my heart. It's so true. When you have a miscarriage that's what you say..."I lost the baby" And sometimes it sounds so stupid.

 lost – adjective
1. no longer possessed or retained

I don't know why this is in my head right now, just a random thought. The pain of a miscarriage never leaves you, it dissipates, it gets easier, but it never goes away. It comes up at odd times and overwhelms you, takes over your thoughts. At times like this I just want to curl up, watch a sad movie and cry-get out all my emotions and move on. Times like this make me even more thankful for the 3 healthy children that I was blessed with.