Missing Ireland

I am having one of those nites. A nite where all I feel is the yearning for Ireland. I want to feel it, I want to surround myself with it, bring it in to me. It's amazing how tired crying can make you, but it's needed. It's not a bad thing, I'm feeling her loss tonite and it's alright! It's OK!!

*My Immortal* Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Comments

margaret said…
Sending you hugs Amanda, hope things are going well with your pregnancy.
Lori said…
Sorry for your heartache this night....this song brings back memories for me--when my mom died abot 7 years ago, I played this over and over and over...sort of like I needed to drown myself in it so that I could make myself get the crying over.

It didn't work...tears still come. And now, after losing Matthew...I just don't think I'll ever lose them.
Hugs to you!
crystal theresa said…
I found your blog through Holly's blog. I'm thinking of you and your baby Ireland, as well as the little one kicking and growing inside of you. I think "Written in the Stars" is a beautiful thing you are doing. ((hugs))
Heather said…
Thank you for sharing this song. I know this post is about a month old, and so I hope you are having some better days.

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