Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Pendants

I've been making pendants. They're family tree pendants and I must say, I LOVE THEM! I don't often love something so much that I've made myself but I really love the way these come out.



The info is here on my facebook page: HeartCrafted

I also have a wide variety of loss ribbons available, October 15th is coming up-Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.

If you're not into facebook you can email me at heartcrafted@live.ca

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Music is Healing

Carly has started a "music class" blog post, check it out here:

http://carlymarieprojectheal.com/2011/08/the-project-heal-music-class-week-one.html

A way for babyloss parents to share the music that is important to them. Music has ALWAYS been huge for me. I use it to work thru everything in my life, from happiness to sadness. Music says so much that I could never say myself.
I love most kinds of music, if it has lyrics that speak to me or a good beat. Music is just wonderful for life. I don't play any instruments or sing...well I sing, but only when no one is around to hear me! lol.

There are a couple songs that are really special to me. The first one is called "The Blood of Cuchulainn. It's instrumental and I don't know why this song gets to me, but I could sob whenever I hear it. I just FEEL Ireland in it, I can't explain it. If you listen to it, the part from 1:17 to 1:35 is my favorite.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuC1DqC67GM

The other song I'll share is called Ireland and it's by Garth Brooks. It's actually about war but there are a few lyrics that are just perfect, and of course hearing anything with your child's name is always beautiful. My favorite lyrics of the song are:
"Her eyes are the stars in heaven, watching o'ver us all the while
And her heart it is in Ireland, deep within the emerald isle"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOUiboOsUwU


Thursday, July 28, 2011

Signs

I'm trying to get better at blogging. I'm usually so tired...well, lazy...that I do facebook and that's it. But I won this lovely pre-made blog design by Fran at Small Bird Studios (found here http://smallbirdstudios.com/ check her out if you haven't before, she is amazing) so I want this space to be used since it is OH SO pretty now!

Anyway, on to my post...
Signs. I think sometimes I look too hard for them. I want to know so badly that Ireland is still with me on some level -any level- that I search too hard, and then I wonder if it's really a sign or just something that I want to think is a sign. Ugh. However on Tuesday at work I had a co worker point out a customers keychain that was a clover that said Ireland on it as well as a sheep with a 'luck' saying of some sort. It was very similar to a keychain I bought that reminds me of my baby girl. This I just must believe was sent from my girl. I asked the woman where she got the keychain and she said "it came from Ireland". Even my co worker said she was sending us a hello on a bad day.
Then yesterday I was stuck behind a truck while on a 30 minute drive. It wasn't until about half way to our destination that I realized the truck had a clover on the back of it...again, thank you baby girl.

I just need to remember to step back and let life happen. She will come to me when I need her to.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Sleep

Sleep has not come easy lately. Too much stress and my mind cannot relax. I'm too tired to do anything so nothing gets done around the house and I don't work on any of my art. Something has to get me moving. Depression sucks.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Hooray!

I just won a premade blog by the wonderful Franchesca Cox at Small Bird Studios. Time to start blogging again!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Check out this give away

The Vintage Pearl is hosting an awesome give away. I've never heard of them until today but the jewelery is gorgeous. Check it out and enter to win.

http://thevintagepearl.blogspot.com/2011/03/happy-birthday-to-me-big-giveaway.html

Saturday, January 22, 2011

So much, So little

It seems I have a million thoughts running thru my head but no way to get them out. So much I want to get out but don't know how.
One thing I'm feeling almost every day is guilt. I have 4 children here on this earth. Amazing children, wonderful children. But they can drive me crazy. I have a six year old boy who doesn't sleep in his own bed no matter what we try. I have four year old boy/girl twins who are, well, four. Who ever came up with terrible two's had no idea that the 'fours' would be a hundred times worse! And then there's my sweet little 8 month old girl. She is my absolute joy right now but starting to scoot around the living room getting in to everything she can't have. My days are long, and I do get frustrated a lot and let that frustration come out in ways it shouldn't. I yell, on really, really bad days I scream-which doesn't often much anymore as long as I take my meds and try really hard to keep myself calm.
All of that anger make me feel absolutely horrible. I know so many wonderful women who have lost their babies, their arms are empty. All they want is their child back to love, to kiss, to hold, and here I am yelling at my kids! It's not right, it's not fair, it makes me feel like absolute crap.

Why do I get blessed with 4 kids while others lose 1, 2, 3, more! Not fair.