Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Wow, It's Been Too Long!

   Oh how blogging has gotten away from me.  I knew it had been a while, but August!  wow!  I guess it's just been one this after another, September came and back to school with the twins starting kindergarten.  Baby Scarlet, who isn't a baby anymore but a toddler, started daycare and I continued working full time.  My husband wasn't working and the stress of every little thing was piling up, more than I knew, and by December part of me cracked.  It was like the load just came down and I could no longer breathe.  I quite my job, suddenly,  my anxiety was so high I had to walk away.  I spent the rest of December and January in a funk,  our last bit income come and gone, we didn't know what we going to do.
    My husband took a traffic control course (flagging) and even tho we heard many places were hiring he didn't hear back.  Things were tight, and finally he got a call and he's been working full time since.  Flagging is unpredictable so it could change at any time but we'll take what we can get.   There been a lot of other small ups and downs...downs that on top of already stressful situation felt crushing but we're working them out.
    We're considering moving back to our home town, there's a whole other stress.  Finding a job, finding a place to live, moving the kids to a new school, I would probably have to find a job which would mean finding a new daycare for Scarlet.  All of that puts that weight back on chest and I feel like I can't breathe, but that is where I really want to be so we'll see what we can do.
   I'm on a new medication and hoping I can get some of my energy back and start creating again.  Soon, hopefully soon.